"Moment of honesty
Someones gotta take the lead tonight
Whose it gonna be?
I'm gonna sit right here
And tell you all that comes to me
If you have something to say
You should say it right now.."
I'm pretty damn excited for Boston.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
constantly confused
why are you distancing yourself from me?
what is going on?
im so sick of
this shit.
I am now at a peace with things.
Times are changing and that's okay.
(I really like the picture below. Wonder why...)
what is going on?
im so sick of
this shit.
I am now at a peace with things.
Times are changing and that's okay.
(I really like the picture below. Wonder why...)
Thursday, December 9, 2010
we're going to be close friends
this isn't like me
this isn't like me
this isn't like me
this isn't like me
WHAT has he done to me?
maybe a little dose of my own medicine?
HAVE I BEEN CROSSED?!
i seriously cant be falling already
too soon
fresh
new
something isn't right about this;
HOW did he meet me on the other side?
oh daughters of Lilith, what is going on?
if he wants dirty Craft, i'll bring it.
this isn't like me
this isn't like me
this isn't like me
WHAT has he done to me?
maybe a little dose of my own medicine?
HAVE I BEEN CROSSED?!
i seriously cant be falling already
too soon
fresh
new
something isn't right about this;
HOW did he meet me on the other side?
oh daughters of Lilith, what is going on?
if he wants dirty Craft, i'll bring it.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I play for keeps
Alright Universe, tell me, what the fuck is going on?
This is too crazy to be called coincidence.
Not once, twice, but THREE times?!
my spell never fails.
This is too crazy to be called coincidence.
Not once, twice, but THREE times?!
my spell never fails.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
just exchanging
Remember this day I will.
filled with unbelief and wonder.
today i paid for last night's fun.
12+ cups of Waffle House coffee partied
with PBR, gin, and more gin. Zorbas.
Photo Hunt. That thing that never was.
I wonder about it though, caress it like
small ocean critters in petting tanks. Wonder what
being with him would be like, his lips and
the way excitement lights up his genetically
perfect face.
Excessive conversation and gripping eye contact.
Oh how the mind wonders.
Please don't leave me here without you,
You are not one of the Others
I have been awake for 34 hours.
My mind hates me more than my body.
I am killing both of them (one can only take so many).
The blue pills watch me from the counter like they always do.
I reply, "my mind is slipping, I can't play with you."
I have been mildly hallucinating off and on for about 3 hours.
Just the insects again. And the pressure on my fingernails.
I am not given any control, than back to mortal.
puppet.
Today my body cried out to me, as she does on the
underbelly of consciousness, showing me things I
forget to notice. My bone splinter decided to dip out
in the Pita House. Mmmm falafellllll...and wait... grain
of uncooked rice? Nope. Just a little sliver of skeleton.
Less than twenty minutes later I found the little guys who'd
gone missing. Pulled him out, along with his partner in crime.
Unbelievably warm. Not the first time and not the last.
THERE THEY GO AGAIN! , the swift moving figures.
my subconscious wants me to play but im not ready to
lay down and surrender my body. Not just yet.
Tomorrow (actually already today) i'll be driving to Athens.
My heart is in a state of spasm, my blood dense and hot yet
traveling without space time through my veins. Breatheeeee.....
When I think about that moment, THE moment, that has been
discussed and re discussed, flipped and poked and reconstructed,
somewhere in the world I have killed something innocent.
predation, wild and terrifying. I HAVE to learn to put myself
out there. It's unhealthy to push people away solely in the fear
of being hurt, being "exposed".
I am going to indulge, let go, just be. Letting, for ONCE
this semester, school take the back burner and operate/
experience life on MY time. This is for me. I need this one.
Day is my middle name and at 2:30 p.m.
on the 1st of December 2010,
my biological satellite lost signal.
filled with unbelief and wonder.
today i paid for last night's fun.
12+ cups of Waffle House coffee partied
with PBR, gin, and more gin. Zorbas.
Photo Hunt. That thing that never was.
I wonder about it though, caress it like
small ocean critters in petting tanks. Wonder what
being with him would be like, his lips and
the way excitement lights up his genetically
perfect face.
Excessive conversation and gripping eye contact.
Oh how the mind wonders.
Please don't leave me here without you,
You are not one of the Others
I have been awake for 34 hours.
My mind hates me more than my body.
I am killing both of them (one can only take so many).
The blue pills watch me from the counter like they always do.
I reply, "my mind is slipping, I can't play with you."
I have been mildly hallucinating off and on for about 3 hours.
Just the insects again. And the pressure on my fingernails.
I am not given any control, than back to mortal.
puppet.
Today my body cried out to me, as she does on the
underbelly of consciousness, showing me things I
forget to notice. My bone splinter decided to dip out
in the Pita House. Mmmm falafellllll...and wait... grain
of uncooked rice? Nope. Just a little sliver of skeleton.
Less than twenty minutes later I found the little guys who'd
gone missing. Pulled him out, along with his partner in crime.
Unbelievably warm. Not the first time and not the last.
THERE THEY GO AGAIN! , the swift moving figures.
my subconscious wants me to play but im not ready to
lay down and surrender my body. Not just yet.
Tomorrow (actually already today) i'll be driving to Athens.
My heart is in a state of spasm, my blood dense and hot yet
traveling without space time through my veins. Breatheeeee.....
When I think about that moment, THE moment, that has been
discussed and re discussed, flipped and poked and reconstructed,
somewhere in the world I have killed something innocent.
predation, wild and terrifying. I HAVE to learn to put myself
out there. It's unhealthy to push people away solely in the fear
of being hurt, being "exposed".
I am going to indulge, let go, just be. Letting, for ONCE
this semester, school take the back burner and operate/
experience life on MY time. This is for me. I need this one.
Day is my middle name and at 2:30 p.m.
on the 1st of December 2010,
my biological satellite lost signal.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
my warm, fuzzy blanket
I woke up not to long ago.
It's 8am and I'm still sleepy.
If I could have anything in the world right now, it'd be
the opportunity to lay in bed with coop all day, watching
movies, essin bees, and drinking mimosas, oh and.... ;)
But, in reality, it's rainy and cold outside and I must go to
school while he goes to sleep (or whatever he does) in Japan.
I just want to cuddle with a man that isn't hairy and who's soft.
That's not such an easy thing to find.
They have some funnyyyy "boyfriend applications" online.
What twatssssss...
It's 8am and I'm still sleepy.
If I could have anything in the world right now, it'd be
the opportunity to lay in bed with coop all day, watching
movies, essin bees, and drinking mimosas, oh and.... ;)
But, in reality, it's rainy and cold outside and I must go to
school while he goes to sleep (or whatever he does) in Japan.
I just want to cuddle with a man that isn't hairy and who's soft.
That's not such an easy thing to find.
They have some funnyyyy "boyfriend applications" online.
What twatssssss...
Monday, November 29, 2010
deep and moist
Last night I dreamt of psychological manipulation.
I wasn't always like this ya know.
Choice between hero or villain?
...that's a hard one ;)
I wasn't always like this ya know.
Choice between hero or villain?
...that's a hard one ;)
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